David Ezekiel just had his four month well check. He weighs 20 lbs. 2 oz. now, is 27 inches long, and is going to start solid foods today (March 7th).
Emotional Reactions: I did not look forward to having a baby before I got pregnant. Once I was pregnant I was excited and afraid that any anxiety or fear would cause my baby to feel unwanted in the womb. I was so looking forward to not breastfeeding any longer until the doctor told me to start feeding him solids. When he was born I hated breastfeeding. I finally got used to it around month three and began to actually feel all the good parts that had been promised to me. The biggest thing for me was to know that I could provide for him. After my teaching profession leaving me feeling like an utter failure, I was finally able to do something. And I could do it well, my baby is a giant! He is over the 97th percentile in every category and he is teething! My job is being taken away by oat cereal. I came home yesterday and cried. My little baby is growing up so fast, and no matter how much time I spend with him and attention I pay to him that adage will still be true.
Spiritual Significance Learned:
But I, brothers, could not address you as spiritual people, but as people of the flesh, as infants in Christ. I fed you with milk, not solid food, for you were not ready for it. And even now you are not yet ready, for you are still of the flesh. For while there is jealousy and strife among you, are you not of the flesh and behaving only in a human way?
1 Corinthians 3:1-3
When I was 8 months pregnant I was asked what it would be most important for my baby boy to know. I answered without hesitation that I wanted him to know Jesus as his savior. This verse in 1 Corinthians came to mind when I was finally calming down last night. I am jealous of oatmeal. Beyond that I am jealous of the time anyone but myself gets to spend with David. I am acting in a worldly way that does not allow David Ezekiel to see the trust in our friends and family necessary to feel secure with them. I am an example of an infant, unwilling to trust him to God’s care and to others’ care because he might not need me. He shouldn’t need me, he should need God. I want to be his whole world, and I am right now, but in my heart I want him to only need Jesus. I need him to love Jesus and strive after him. So, again today, and again while Louis feeds him his first solid food tonight, and again every day and moment that I begin to want to be his goddess instead of his mother, I place him at the throne of God and say, “For this child I prayed, and the Lord has granted me my petition that I made to him. Therefore I have lent him to the Lord. As long as he lives, he is lent to the Lord.” 1 Samuel 1:27-28